After Sake, After Eight, After Something...

Oi, it's good thing I drank a lotta water. My friends JR and RJS took me out for dinner and to get me plastered, err relaxed. First we went to a Japanese restaurant, where I ended up eating both my appetizers b/c no one else wanted any of it(not that I minded. Mmmmm Saba Shioyaki and Tempura), and then having RJS's beef tataki b/c well, they don't like their meat raw. It was pretty wierd that the chicken yakitori was also done the same way as the tataki, just seared on the outside. RJS sent it back to be fully cooked. Never seen yakitori like that before. And we had an entire bottle of warm sake. And it wasn't one of the bottles you normally see in the anime, it was at least 1.5L 's worth. Hot sake is much better than lukewarm sake. But being a lightweight, it wasn't all to my liking. But JR and RJS were praising it like crazy, so I guess it was good. Anyways I had chirashi, and by the end of the dinner, I was pretty hammered. I could hear my heartbeat, and since JR had to drive, we had to finish the bottle.

But the night wasn't over! We were going to the Bank, but there was lineup, and since I was in my TL clothes, we couldn't go to Suburbs or First City. We ended up going to Sherlock Holmes. And JR ordered me something called... "Calibra" or something like that (had lime in it, and came in a mug w/ straw), but it was pretty gross, so we asked the waitress for ideas,and I got an After Eight. Which was good, and I finished that pretty fast. Then JR was going to get me another but I wanted something different but of course being a drinking virgin, I didn't have a clue what I wanted. So she got me something that turned my teeth blue but was in a mug w/ a straw. JR said it was probably an Astropop. It kinda tasted like pop. Then he ordered me a Baja Rosa which wasn't so good. The tequila killed the strawberry taste. Well by then I was starting to fall asleep, I was getting a pretty good headache too, and my cheeks were hurting from laughing and smiling so much. And at least my stomach hurt b/c I was laughing so much, instead of being all tensed from the stress.

Which is why they took me out. I've been so stressed out from managing 2 teams, reporting to 2 MOs, and trying to get the team into any semblence of improvement since both TLs basically left me w/o any help on their teams, just lots of paperwork. One of the TLs asked how I was doing, the standard question, and I went "I'm ready to be checked into the mental hospital." I was trying to be funny but I guess I looked so out of it, AJ goes "really?!", and I go "I'm joking," and then I start crying. I just have this problem when people fuss over me. I dunno, it makes me feel worse. Before when I was slaving away on MT's team and putting in 10-11 hrs days, one of my friends/peers said in a really kind but exasperated voice "Go home, you're killing yourself." And I didn't start bawling, but tears were leaking and I kinda mumbled "I know, but I gotta get this sh!t done." At least w/ CS's team I've only had to work 2 hrs overtime once, and the rest of the time, I've only been doing less than half an hour extra. I suppose it's technically my team b/c CS isn't coming back, and it's now starting week 2 I'll have the team. So far they haven't told me that they're getting someone to replace me or dissolve the team. Gawd, it's all a bunch of newbies, and there's so much that they don't know. And then there's one guy who's really gay... and really Catholic. So he's trying to be a celibate 51 year-old. And he smells, and has other medical issues. And is pretty stupid too, you have to repeat things 5 times before he gets it. And it's not you just repeating it, he has to repeat it to himself 5 times. And I'm still not sure if he gets it or if he's just trying to get me to shut up. I didn't know about the gay Catholic part until later, but after coaching him I had plenty of ammunition for mocking. And now that I know he's Catholic, let's just say it's really bad to have an atheist-agnostic for a TL.

What's an atheist-agnostic? Other than someone who can't seem to make up their mind but disclaims that they can't make up their mind? For me anyways, a lot of it is anti-established religion. Christianity, Islam, religions that are organized around central omnipotent, omniscient figure are a load of baloney to me. 1) they're probably just ripping from each other 2) they're worshipping the same character 3)the heads of the religion are making it up as they go along 4) its usefulness to gather a community and protect against outside forces are no longer valid in today's world 5)opiate for the masses. I really do believe in the latter. If you're a member, or were raised in that environment, you're probably a really good sheep. So there's the atheist part, I think most religions are a load of crock, especially when it bestows omnipotence & perfection to any figure. So the agnostic part is that I'm not so full of myself that I don't notice there are some wierd things going on, with an ability beyond our comprehension. But one society's science is another's magic. I'm not saying that we'll figure everything out (b/c then that'd be pretty boring), just that there's always something beyond us, but is falliable and potent. Humans are bed lice in the universe.