I think my brain has been destroyed by work....

I can't remember any of my neices' or nephew's b-days. Seriously. I scoured my blog looking for when they were. And yep, apparently I need to find presents for them. Anyways, trying to remember anything I learned from university is just like impossible. Heck, remembering anything is tough. Am I getting Alzheimer's already?

Trying to learn Japanese. I'm like wierd, I guess. I did the "repeat this sentance", and it was annoyingly boring b/c I didn't understand how the sentence worked together, why the tense is this or that. So I'm going the opposite way. I've bought a book on kanji, a book on grammar and verbs, and a book on particles. Of course w/ kanji, I'll learn some of the characters that I kinda can apply for Chinese too, so...I might end up being able to semi-read Chinese but can't say it but can understand what they're saying; whereas w/ Japanese right now, I can say the romanization, but I don't know what I'm saying. Was that semi-colon right? I can't remember. I did read "Eats, Shoots, and Leaves" but...again I can't remember.

Mind you it could be b/c I'm working day 9 of 11. The scheduling f*ckw@d put me 5 days on straight, then 1 day off, and 5 days straight again. At least I get a 3 day weekend.

Farewell...Already

H came back into Canada about 2 weeks ago, and just got a job offer in Quebec. While it is technically in the same country, where she'll be going to teach is so backwater, travel time will be almost the same. And the annoying part is that we haven't even thrown her a welcome back party and she's already going to be flying off next week. It's a great opportunity, she'll get the experience she needs and in the profession she loves...but I'll be selfish here and say that I wish she was around a little bit longer.

So today we went to hang out w/ our friend T, and I really felt like the 3rd wheel. H and T are talking about Harry Potter (again!) and I am totally zoning out. Even though I forced myself to read the books so I know the characters they're talking about, but gawd, I really couldn't care if Remus and Sirus are bump bunnies or just love embracing each other like brothers. They're completely into the fandom, and involvement into fandom in general whether it be Weiss Kreuz or Gundam Wing. While I've read my share of fanfic, and did some participation on boards, mostly for X-Men, it's not like I have a handle that I've maintained or started groups concerning who's shagging whom. Then they started to talk about history and despite being a History major, I don't remember a dang thing from my books. I really do tend to retain information only for about twice as long as I'm going to need it, so I'll still vaguely remember the creation of the Comic Code Authority, but I'm not going to remember when TX joined the USA. And then the kicker was when b/c H began ranting on Harry Potter (again!) and I couldn't hotld it until we got to the mall, so I had to ask T if I could use his bathroom. T didn't want us up there since he hadn't cleaned since...unknown. Since I'd never been in his place for longer than a minute, I didn't know where the light switch was, and was fumbling in the dark, and T was pretty poed that I couldn't just run in and out and had to show me the switch. And yeah, there was clothes and... things everywhere, but meh. Turned out H had to use it too, so T kinda calmed down a bit, but... it was an awkward day. After when it was just me and H, it was all cool and we acted like the otaku that we are. I'm not jealous of H and T focussing on each other since H is living w/ me right now, but ... I'm so freakin' sick of Harry Potter.

And then the stupid new Sushi place closed at 6 so we couldn't try it out. Argh. It was only an okay day off.

Personality Test

My Personality

Neuroticism	58
Extraversion	11
Openness To Experience	63
Agreeableness	4
Conscientiousness	51

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Hmm, that's a pretty good personality test. Anger management? Me? The one who gives the finger to the monitor at work b/c it's so freakin' slow that you sit there and sit there and can't get a thing done while you're on the call? Naw, not me lol. And I never blew up at the b!tch in HR who thankfully isn't there really anymore. Hmm, and I have no morality...oh probably b/c I think there's no absolute right or wrong. And since I don't like to be bothered by people, could be why I broke up w/ JR. Heh, his flowers that he gave for 2 month anniversary (which I didn't keep track at all) are still alive.

Quiz: What Color Green Are You?

You Are Teal Green

You are a one of a kind, original person. There's no one even close to being like you. Expressive and creative, you have a knack for making the impossible possible. While you are a bit offbeat, you don't scare people away with your quirks. Your warm personality nicely counteracts and strange habits you may have.

What Color Green Are You?

That's a nice colour. Can't say I have a lotta stuff w/ that colour though.

Quiz: How Aquarius Are You?

You are 73% Aquarius

How Aquarius Are You?

I don't know what that means. I'm an early Aqarius, so I'm not sure what effect has. I'm not really into that Astrology or Horoscope stuff. Though some of my friends are. They'll tell you me that you're so typical for... you're just like the other dragon-snake I know. Particular when it came to remembering dates.

Why are there so many programs about 9/11 suddenly?! ...Oh

Yes, I actually made that comment. I think it was on Wednesday or something. Seriously, I can't remember what day it is beyond the Monday, Tuesday variety. Anyways, it's hard to believe it's already been 5 years. No really, I can't remember what year it happened in. I do remember where I was when I found out. Sitting at home, flipping the channels and stopping on CBC Newsworld and going "What the hell? How the heck can a plane fly into those huge towers?! What's w/ the pilot?" and then going to work at one of those big box supermarkets, and hanging around the Photo/Electronics dept listening, and thinking "those poor people". When I found out it was terrorists, it made sense. Not in the sense that only terrorists could do such a thing and they're horrible bad bad people! But more like, yup the American policies and attitudes are biting them in the @ss.

Are the terrorists' actions justified? Well I suppose in the same way that governments can justify civilian deaths as collateral damage in wars. B/c for the terrorists it is a war, and it doesn't matter what happens to the other side as long as they win. Long gone are the days when they'd have a set target and once it was achieved, both sides would shake hands and help each other rebuild. Until attitudes about conflict change, it'll just be revenge stacked on revenge. Ha ha, actually if it was run entirely by the military-industrial complex they'd sell weapons to each party but generally equal weapons so the war would perpetuate, and the industrial would reaps loads of money rebuilding, until the damage is too great to rebuild, and which they'll move to another area, so until the entire Earth is devastated, then war might stop... isn't that already happening to a degree? Well I know it's a plot of one of the Ace Combat games. Getting a little off topic here. We're trying to look at the continued aftereffects of 9/11.

So the definition of Terrorism from yourDictionary.com is "The unlawful use or threatened use of force or violence by a person or an organized group against people or property with the intention of intimidating or coercing societies or governments, often for ideological or political reasons. " So the key in this definition is -unlawful-. Of course there's state-sponsored terrorism which really can be called operations (example of failed attempt is Bay of Pigs), or just coalition-led war (Operation Iraqi Freedom which was largely led by US, bit of Brit, smattering of other countries lumped under "Coalition of the Willing) all in the name of ...democracy. (See Global Spread of Democracy Poses New Challenge for the US by Donald K. Emmerson for further hilarity of American "democracy"). The American govt is terrorizing its own people, acting unlawfully and profiting from the circumstances. It is not mere happenstance that they passed the Patriot Act(2001) and in the 2004 US election, 9/11 was trumpeted constantly and Bush won by a landslide. How different is constantly invoking fear by mentioning 9/11 from making broadcasts of planned attacks?

In an article in the Sept 7 Edmonton Journal, Sheldon Alberts discusses how America has changed since 9/11: "the sense of vulnerability caused by 9-11 continues to permeate almost every aspect of American life. It has sustained a national obsession with security, dramatically altered expectations of the country's political leadership, generated deep divisions over foreign policy and produced ongoing suspicion about tthe world beyond US borders." Now, being a HUGE fan of Jon Stewart and the Daily Show along w/ The Colbert Report, they constantly point out how often President Bush and his administration love to trot out 9/11 to justify any decision that threatens civil and human rights. The GOP produced the 9/11 boogeyman and have gotten the American public into a state of constant stress. What do people do when they're stressed? Freak out ("A USA Today/Gallup pool in July found 40% of Americans favoured security rules requiring Muslims, including US citizens, to carry special identification" which makes one remember the Star of David that Jews had to wear in Germany before WWII), miss details (illegality of NSA wiretaps, prisoners -still- deprived at Guantanamo Bay), look for any leadership (Bush's job approval rating is 36% [American Research Group] but 55% approve of his handling of the anti-terror campaign [Chron.com], become paranoid ("The number of Americans expressing positive feelings about the United Nations...has fallen to 48% today from 77% before 9-11") and generally act like jerks thus making the rest of the world get fed up (2005, Pew Research Center)(2006, BBC Poll).

And while Bush may say that all this has led to the USA not having been attacked again in the last 5 years, do the terrrorists really need to? America is increasingly divisive over any issue, spending exorbitant amounts of lives and money in Iraq, despised by more and more countries worldwide, and completely paranoid ("Other surveys repeatedly show the Americans are split 50/50 on whether the country is safer now than it was before 9-11"). Now is the craziness perpetuated by the terrorists or the govt? There's much to be said about how you react to things, and it's certainly isn't being helped by the Bush administration. However the Bush govt has managed to deflect much criticism by citing 9/11, and pushed thru several agendas amidst the confusion. Only recently have they been under sustained attack for its errors, and that was only b/c they could no longer use the "unpatriotic" label to stick to its critics. So while Osama bin-Laden may be on wanted posters, the American govt has to also answer for its terrorizing actions. Which may happen in the upcoming 2006 elections for both the Senate and House of Representatives.

I'm hungry

I hate waking up only an hour before I'm supposed to get up, can't go back to sleep, can't lie in bed. Can't quite eat even though I'm hungry. Seems to be happening a lot after working night-morning-night-morning-night b/c I'm filling in for vacationing TLs.

Yesterday was my last day taking over yet another team. Although in this case, it belonged to another SLR who was in Acting Team Leader role. Who apparently didn't know that she was losing her team when she went on vacation. She took it a bit hard. So it's like, uh...yeah I don't know if any of those disciplinary actions that she was planning for will be followed up on. Not to mention their time punches. Oh well, whatever. Maybe I'll remember to remind her.

And so now it'll be a 4-way choice for who gets to fill in for vacationing TLs, not that there will be much b/c summer's over. And they opened up hirings for the SLR position. And the TL position, but I didn't bother applying. I'm so, I don't care. And then they opened up Quality Evaluator. I might apply for that just b/c to get out the whole thing. But it's still kinda iffy. I printed a whole bunch of my resumes at work.

Really, I think it's time to either go back to school, or find another job. I think both would benefit me psychologically. I wasn't born to work, particularly there. Why are we born? Why is there life? Is it to run the variables? Experiment to discover diversity? I suppose that might be why they invented religion, otherwise it'd be too scary for most people.

Hungry.

Sometimes I love being on the phone...

So after taking over another team on Monday, I was put on the phones on Saturday b/c I had a life on Sunday. No, that's really what happened. The supervisor I was replacing was supposed to work on the Sunday, but my schedule is that I have that Sunday off. So I planned dim sum w/ my friends, and after I was going to watch SummerSlam at Myah's house. But the manager in charge of SLRs got all pissy and said that if I'm going to have Sunday off, then I'm only going to take over the team for as many days as the supervisor requested days off. So since he only requested 4 vacation days this week, I only got paid 4 days at the TL rate, and today I had to be on the phones. Then next week, I run his team from Mon-Thurs and he's back on Friday(which is also when I'm back on the phones). When I explained that to my supervisor, and really everyone else, they were all WTF?

Anyways, most amusing call I had is that a guy called in to cancel his svc b/c of the NSA wiretapping program and that Cingular cooperated. So being Canadian and anti-Bush (b/c they're not the same thing lol), it was really hard not to waive his ETF and start talking politics. However I think I gave him the impression that I was totally agreeing w/ him. Anyways, I transferred to the cancellation dept and when I told the rep the reason, you could tell that's she either doesn't keep up on politics (like she said) or that she's one of the Bush-supporters braindead people. The customer had a very Anglo-Saxon last name, so she started saying that it's unlikely that he's getting targetted by the program, and did he suspect that his records were being released... and I'm like "Look, the govt has been ruled to be breaking the law, and the customer is cancelling on matter of principle b/c he's not going to do business w/ a company that'll release records when there hasn't been a warrant." And yes, I was giggling the entire time, b/c it's so hilarious. I'm not sure if that agent still understood it, but she took the call anyways. But seriously, like I told that agent, I was wondering when we'd start getting calls from customers who wanted to cancel for that reason. And I hope all the company cronies who agreed to release the records all lose their customers so that they'll learn that the govt money lining their pockets doesn't justify breaking the law. Can't believe that the govt would try to appeal it, hello! it's just common sense. The situation that America's in isn't what anyone'd call wartime and therefore justify breaking their constitutional laws.

Yeah, so I'm going to try to get to bed early so that I can go to the museum and get half-price admission. D's off picking up H, so it's lovely having the apt to myself. I can leave the door open and enjoy the A/C. Never mind the walking around in my underoos. I can understand why T'd want to leave alone.

Quiz: What Gender Is Your Brain?

Your Brain is 53% Female, 47% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

I actually thought I'd be more male b/c I'm not "emotional" often, and I tend to think things logically. which either means a lotta stuff is stereotypical, or that it's a result of having grownup in a strictly male household for...20 yrs.

Quiz: What Superhero Are You?

You Are Batman

Billionaire playboy by day. Saving the world by night. And you're not even a true superhero. Just someone with a lot of expensive toys!

What Superhero Are You?

Cool, I'm Batman. So I suppose that's supposed to mean I have a dual personality or something? Well I guess that could be true, although I always thought I was relatively straightforward. Willing to take on street justice?! Oh yeah, fear me you sidewalk-spitters! Bat's among the few DC char I don't despise. Especially when he has such cute sidekicks. Heh heh heh.

Don't bite the hand you want to help you

So I'm still a bit steamed at JR. On Friday, I was only finished w/ about 28 monitors, and the I still had about 2 more days to do monitors, so technically I only needed to do another 2 and I'd be finished. However JR was short by about 4 and it was his last day of the week to do them. So he asked me if I'd wanna do monitors for him, and it's like "nope, do 'em yourself. *lol*" Anyways, later on when everyone'd gone home, and we were talking to V about the shortage of Floor Support and how the TLs are being dragged into doing it. JR started going about how he's always the one the Floor Support goes to have things done, how some TLs have to be told to do provide Floor Support while he spends most of his time helping agents, and then he looks at me in a somewhat joking way. So I'm like whatever, I do help when I see agents who need help. And then JR goes "yeah but you always have your head down when you're monitoring." And I'm As if, whatever, I don't really give a sh!t, it's not like I'm TL next week. Well he goes to me "well you'd better change your attitude or you're going to be on phones all the time." Yeah, well that totally pissed me off. 1) he brought up an incident that he knew was a sore point for me 2)he was the one that asked for help w/ monitors 3) I used to be Floor Support before I was SLR and the only reason why they don't go to me is b/c they don't know if I'm being a TL or stuck on the phones from day-to-day.4) the reason why he doesn't have as many monitors is b/c he's not as efficient as I am. So I think V knew I was p!ssed off after that (b/c I don't usually swear out loud at work), and when I went home that night, I didn't say bye to JR even though he's my bf. And then over the weekend I turned off AIM just in case he was going to go on. And today, I got a SMS from saying that it's my fault that he's sick now (I got sick after LL and SM's wedding on 7th) and he had a "lol" on it. I'm thinking, "Well that's just the gods' wrath for arguing w/ me." For a personal who doesn't belong to any religion I do believe in gods. More for fun and to explain inexplicable things, but yeah, I'm still poed.

And I suppose the same situation is at work. Hence my work-to-rule policy. Yesterday I was supposed to be off b/c it's supposed to be that TL's Sunday off, but I didn't know, so went in. Which I didn't care much after I found out. Better to be paid another day at TL level than at rep level. Ended up surfing the web, printing out all the crap I needed when I'm on the phones, entered monitors and updated journals. Stuff like that.

Quiz: Your Wonderful Pirate Life!!! UPDATED!!! Wonderful Results!

.:MR. GIBBS:.Captain Jack Sparrow: Thinks you are a great friend, but he wouldnt die for you or anything like that...(like he'd die for anyone)William Turner: He thinks you are a wonderful person and a wonderful friend to haveElizabeth Swan: You and her are close, sharing secrets and helping each other out.Mr. Gibbs: Loves you. He thinks you are the most beautiful woman on earth and a wonderful person. He would die for you...wow.Norrington: Thinks you a beautiful and loves you as a friend.Davy Jones: Doesnt really know you, but plans to kill you anyway. Its just how he works.Bootstrap Bill Turner: Doesnt really know you that well, but he thinks you are a great person and prettyJack (the monkey): Loves you because you play with him when the others cant, and defend him from Jack at times..:STORY:.You sigh, taking another swig of rum in the mess cabin, enjoying a small party with your crew mates. You noticed that many of them had been eyes you, but you stayed by Gibbs...he had always protected you. Shivering slightly as one of the crew attempted to touch your leg, you walked over to Gibbs, who had seen this and was glaring at the young man. You slid into his arms...he was your best freind...and stayed there the rest of the night, finally falling asleep against his chest.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
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Did this one just to see the results. And I actually thought Mr. Gibbs was either the guy w/ the wooden eye or his buddy. But Mr. Gibbs wouldn't be a bad choice really. Nice bloke. Hasn't managed to drink himself into a stupor despite working for Jack. lol

Quiz: Your life at Hogwarts(GURLS ONLY)

Your life at Hogwarts(GURLS ONLY).

Your House: GF.Your bf: RonYour friends: everybody in gf.what you look likeLYou have waist length golden curly blonde hair and baby blue eyes. You are about 5'1". You are slim, but still have ebough curves to make Ron salivate over you. You are a classic beauty. You are just about, everyones friend, even the slytherins kind of like you.What your friends think of you:Ron: She's the love of my life. I still can't belive she's mine. I'm head over heels in love with her.Hermione: Im a bit envious she got ron, but she's still my friend.Harry: She's beautiful, but I know she's rons. Besides, I got my own love.Ginny: I love her like a sister. I wish she and ron would get married so she would be my sister.Thw twins: Think yor okay. Prefer their own hottie.How it happened:-D :You were sitting up in a tree when suddenly you were pushed out. When you were able to regain your senses you saw that malfoy had pushed you out. Now he was walking toward you. He grabbed your waist and pushed his mouth on you. She tried to get away, but he was too strong. You made al the noise you could, flailing your arms and legs. Suddenly you were pulled apart by ron. He shouted at Draco, "what the hell are you doing?" Malfoy tried to answer but Ron was too quick he used a curse on him that made the word: Harrasser appear all over his skin. Malfoy got up and ran to the hospital wing. You were alone with ron. He sat down and you uttered thanks saying you would do anything for him. He thoght about it for him, then he looked at you. His face grew softer, than he pulled you closer to him, till you were almost in his lap. Then he kissed you.It was a gentle kiss, but passionate. Colors exploded in your head, and fireworks went off. You broke apart and he said, "_____Will you be my girlfriend?" "Yes",you replied,"I'd be glad to". Then you smiled. He pulled you into another kiss, a bit rougher, and you kissed back. Soon you were in his lap. I wont go into more details.Please rate! This quiz took me a long time. I'm not making you, but will you please?
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I don't mind the result ie. getting Ron as my bf, but gah! The whole scenario and what "I look like" is so lame. Definitely written by someone just hitting puberty. Ron'd be the dependable but slightly exasperating bf. I was leaning towards the twins b/c they're hilarious, but I'd probably pull my hair out half the time, and chasing after them on the broom LMAO in the other. Cedric's a bit too perfect. Harry was also a possibility, and at least he's not a main character I hate. Draco...can I beat him? No really. Just for fun. Make him into my slave.

Geez, I can't believe I'm doing Harry Potter quizzes. I'm onto the 5th book...uh...what's the title? Order of the Phoenix. So far it's the most interesting. We all must have an Umbridge in our life. I have a feeling that Rowling wrote the teachers based on several people. As a series, it's not bad. The characters were largely 2 dimensional until this book. It's not a "I must have it for my own" series (I'm reading H's) but it's entertaining enough for me to read in the tub w/o drowning. Wouldn't mind seeing the movies though.

Prophecy? or some wierd symbolism?

This morning (cause I sleep till noon) I had a dream that someone at my workplace died. Not died there, or in front of me, but she got into a vehicle accident and died. I know who she is but I'm somewhat neutral towards her. Yeah, she got the supervisor position instead of me, and was only a rep when she got it, but I think she's a nice girl. But yeah, so I dreamed that she died, and people who knew her were all upset and wanted the entire centre to be closed so that they could go to her funeral and then wanted everyone's journal w/ the death. I think I was acting supervisor in the dream, and I was acting sympathetic but realistic. There was no way in hecked they'd close the centre, and there's no way I'd update 400+ journals. Yeah so I hear about the death, and I was all "I'm so sorry to hear that. Oh you want a day off, oh okay, but it'll have to be unpaid"

Yeah, so I have no clue what that was, but it happened. I've had dreams which included people I went to elementary w/ and we'd just sorta meet in the street or what have you. But I'm sleepy now.

Quiz: How Brutally Honest Are You?

You Are 52% Brutally Honest

Honesty is important to you, but generally, you try not to be brutal about it. You'll sugar coat the truth when you need to... and tell a white lie when necessary.

How Brutally Honest Are You?

Heh, one of the questions was "has your mouth ever gotten you into trouble", and it's like Oh yeah. Do I lack tact? Yup. Ah, quizzes good when you're about to pass out.

Bitterness is my state

So I open my email on Saturday to find out that I'm not taking over the specialized team. They decided instead to let the other TL take over both teams. Why? Oh, b/c the vacationing TL was able to do it for a month, so the other TL should be able to do it. Coincidentally enough, the OM for the specialized team also happens to be the one that reamed me out the other day, and had the nerve to say "if you want to be a TL..." Yeah, so basically as long as those 2 OMs are at the site, I probably won't ever be hired as a TL.

Yeah, so it was just great to find out in email. Apparently the assignment supervisor tried to call me on Friday, but b/c I don't have Caller ID, I didn't know who it was. But he didn't bother to leave a VM. Probably got too scared of my VM greeting. It's ... unique. Well it's very serious and all proper for the beginning, but then there's a little twist at the end. And then when he called me on Saturday when I was at work, I was like steel on the phone. "Yes, I read the email." "Uh huh." "Okay." "Bye." At this point, I don't particularly care if I get to fill in for other TLs. Unless it means taking over teams that have friends or acquaintances on it, it's like "whatever. I get paid more."

*nod nod* Excellent job in retaining employees as usual. *heavy sarcasm* At least while I'm on calls I can read or color or something. I haven't for a while b/c it's just such a chore to find or do anything in their dumbass systems that I don't have time during the call to do stuff b/c it's all so slow. Spend half the time watching the hourglass. Or maybe I'm just trying to convince myself it won't be that bad. It's still quite the slap in the face to be tossed back on the phones when they were bitching about not having enough SLRs to cover all the vacationing TLs.

Which may be why I'm still up when I should be sleeping b/c I'm so tired. I have a tendancy to do that. If I know the next day is going to suck, I'll forestall it anyway I can. Technically that doesn't actually happen, but since when I sleep, I don't notice any passage of time, it's like time fastfowards when I'm sleeping. So it's a bit of a paradox, but it makes sense in my little world. Oh, I guess I should check when I work...huh 1:30. Bah. Still haven't gotten my fckng Performance Appraisal, 2 months after they were supposed to be delivered.

Okay, well I'm getting a headache from being up at 7:30 (after turning over when it was 6:30 and I was supposed to get up at 6:45) and thus having to eat my breakfast at work since I'm supposed to work at 8. All this after getting home from watching Pirates of Carribean at 1:00a, and getting to be at around 2.

I'll try writing a review of the movie another time. But the short version of it is...it sucked.

Work To Rule

Yes, another "I hate my job" post. We'll start w/ the most immediate impact. I hate my job b/c they don't have consistent hours. The bastards decided to start at 8 on weekdays, 10 on Saturday and 6 on Sunday. Like WTF? So of course I forgot it's Saturday (well not technically b/c I set the VCR to program my cartoons), so I drag my @ss outta bed and start walking to work. And at least realize half a block later, I coulda slept for another 2 hrs. And I'd be taking a nap on the futon if it weren't that I'm recording Pokemon right now, and I want the TV to sleep to.

Anyways, last night I stayed up late to pose my Pokemon plush to form a picture for my camera phone. ...What?! It's not easy to make static objects appear that they're alive. I also have a few of my other plush toys, and it makes me happy.

So back to that hellhole, b/c of mismanagement of resources, they don't have enough floor support so they're pulling the supervisors to fill in instead. Which means we can't meet our deliverables. And it wouldn't be so bad if every supervisor was doing it, but of course there's a bunch that're slackers, and everyone knows about it. So after losing my 3rd official monitor, I ask the OM when they're going to put more floor support on, and she gives me a cock-n-bull story, so I'm like "fine, whatever" toss off my headset and dispose of the monitor sheet (b/c of customer privacy and all the crap) by ripping it. W/ this OM, she won't directly talk to you about it. Instead you hear about it a couple hours or days later, and she'll take offense over anything. Once I told her that "I felt I was being punished for something that happened that was no fault of my own" (I was asked to go on a trip but b/c of their system error, they couldn't create an expense account, and after I worked on it for about 4 hours of my own time, they said they chose someone else b/c they couldn't wait), and so she tells me that she's sorry I feel that way. And then a day later I hear from my supervisor that she felt I was acting unprofessionally. And you couldn't tell me this yourself?! So anyways, again, she tells my OM this, and so he pulls me aside and basically tells me to cover up for their asinine decisions and put on a happy face b/c the reps are watching. Oh, and that "monitors will happen." Sure they do, especially if I were to make them up. But no, he faults me for having a rep listen to his call, while I try to listen to another rep's call and enter monitors at the same time, and accuses me of not efficiently using company time. When during while I was doing that, another OM walked by and said "That's some multitasking!" So I'm just sick of this bull and it's work to rule time.

And I was told my assignment supervisor to take over a specialized team(which had a lotta my friends on it), and I was happy. And when I go to the soon-to-be-vacationing TL that (who shoulda known by now), she's like "oh, uh really, let me check w/ the OM" and didn't look to pleased. And I'm like "WTF?" and was pretty hurt b/c I thought we were on very good terms. The place is a viper pit. No, actually I'm insulting the vipers.

Yeah, so anyways, I had taken over a team on July 19 for another vacationing TL, and he's supposed to be back on Monday, which is when I'm supposed to take over that other team. Oh, and after my OM reamed me about about my professionalism and how I won't get TL if I keep it up, he just goes "that's all I wanted to talk to you about." Nada thing about how I'm doing w/ the team. So I ask him directly, and he goes "oh that team's pretty good." So in other words, any improvements or maintainment of stats is purely due to the team, and not me. I've seen other SLRs lose their teams b/c they messed up the management, so he's basically insulting my abilities. Me bitter? What for?

My vacation ended on July 12, and I got all sick from handling money at animethon, so I didn't get to go walking in the river valley. Although I did play a lotta ps2 and watch dvds. I was so sick, I could barely walk the block to the bank to pay my bill. And I was hacking and sneezing stuff up. I wanna go back on vacation.

Okay, vcr's fini, I'm going to sleep. For the hour. oh well.

Quiz: What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

Your Personality Is Like Acid

A bit wacky, you're very difficult to predict. One moment you're in your own little happy universe... And the next, you're on a bad trip to your own personal hell!

What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

Cool, I'm acid! H did some acid, and told us about it. It was hilarious what happened to her. I think most people would agree that my mood is very mecurial, and if I'm on a bad "trip", it's hard to get me outta it.

Quiz: What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

Your Linguistic Profile:

50% General American English

20% Yankee

15% Dixie

5% Midwestern

5% Upper Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

And I have no idea what that means b/c I'm Canadian. Of course w/ the amt of american programming that I've grown up w/, there's no doubt why I'd have American in there. I think only twice has a caller asked if I was canadian b/c of my accent. I think it might be b/c of the way I say route which rhymes w/ out. But I could be wrong. I have no idea why the Americans find "about" so interesting.

My so-called vacation starts

So I'm on my vacation. Finally. Gawd, I was so burnt out. And I think I still am. I was having a lotta abdomen pains lately, and today it was still the same thing. The sudden need to visit the bathroom. Was very annoying. And still is. However I did put out all my figures. So nice to look above my desk and see all my cuties standing there. Showed D, and he said that the poses that H puts her figures in are a lot more blatant and very sexual. I have one where Meryl has her derringer pulled on Wolfwood b/c Wolfwood has his hand out trying to get money from her by putting the portable confession on her. She's just finished tossing the mini-church to the floor. The most "sexual" thing I have is that all the KOF girls are surrounding Iori and looking at him admirably. I'm not sure if Dark Beast playing "guess who?" on Beast really counts. Anyways, I need to get a doll stand for my 12" Iori figure so he can stand instead of sitting all the time.

Got a call from JR and he goes to me that he can't understand how I couldn't get out of work before 11. He said the only reason why he was there until 11 was b/c he goofed off and had to write up a sudden CAP. That totally pissed me off. Even if he was teasing me, it implies that 1) I spent most of my time goofing off 2)I worked but was so inefficient that I spun my wheels 3)I just stayed long to appear that I was working my @ss off. I'm so freaking tempted to just ignore all his calls for a while. Tomorrow is his day off and he'll be golfing at the company golf tournament, so he'll probably call. He did something similar when we were at work, and since we AIM each other, he said that I had a 50 min break b/c AIM was idle for that long. And it's like, well if I'm on the other server, it's going to show that, and he's like "nope, you were slacking." And considering I've put in so much extra OT, that even if I took an extra 20 min, I would've earned it, I was right poed. So when I got to my desk I AIMed him that I was going to ignore him and it took about an hour before he broke down and apologized. Yeah, I'm still pretty pissed about his VM. Almost tempted to write a nasty txt msg.

So what if I'm not very mature. JR was trying to convince me to go to the golf tournament, and I don't play. So I go to him, "what am I going to do? Put stinkbombs in all of their golfbags?" And he goes, "No, you're supposed to schmooze." I reply "Naw, I'm going to run around putting stinkbombs in their golfbags." The whole concept of schmoozing disgusts me. This of course is in no small part influenced by the fact that I didn't get the TL position. Basically just when I got the team cleaned up and my work hours down, I lose my position. So I hand over a team that has been coached about everything and is finally doing really well to someone who beat me for the position. Now why would I be bitter? Most of my reps were pretty good too and tried to cheer me up, and say that they didn't want someone else to be their TL. One of them even said that they should ask him why I should remain his TL b/c I helped him improve his stats and we know each other fairly well now. A lot of them asked me to check up on them once I get back from my vacation. It does warm the cockles of my heart.

Ow, I'm hurting again down there. At times it feels like the gallbladder, and then it's about where my appendix is. Right now it's appendix. And it's so annoying, I'll get super tired, and ready to drop, and then I'll get a 2nd wind to stay awake. But I'm sleepy now, and my keyboard is screwing up. Spacebar is wacked ever since I cleaned it.

J's in a mess b/c of M. M messes up his life, and J tries to help him w/ it, when he's got probs of his own to deal w/. And since J's outta town, can't even go see him. I wouldn't trust M w/ any money, and J lent him $1000 to help him move and pay for stuff. And of course M got kicked out again, and J's wondering if he should move outta his parent's and share a space w/ M. If it was me, I'd tell him it'd only happen if I had control over his finances, and he had to keep a job for longer than a couple months. D may be easily distracted, and blows his money more than he saves, but at least he realizes that he needs to keep his job and save enough for bills.