Why I have a Blog Redux

Again, I forgot my nephew's name. I just remember that I didn't like it particularly b/c it was common, and not at all interesting. And since all the neices' names ended in -a I thought his did as well. (but of course that's a way of feminizing masculine names, but you never know. There might be an European male name that ends in -a) But it doesn't. And it's Justin. I dunno why Justin. I forgot to ask my brother. What would I name my son (if I ever have one)? Hmmmm, well if I tried not to be Japanese... probably Logan. That's a nice name. And yes, that'd be b/c it's Wolvie's name. But it's a nice strong name, and not verily common. Or Henry after my fav bouncing blue Beast. Uh yeah, I'd be naming my kids after fictional characters, which is a long tradition.

Quiz: What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it. That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power! The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world. Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in. You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways. Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you. As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Um, I guess? A lot of people tell me I'm funny or silly. And yes I do like Pokemon... and pro-wrestling... and Frasier. I've been told I'm bubbly by my Team Leader. I dunno. I don't try to seduce anyone, probably b/c I really don't care about sex and I'm not someone that needs to be cuddled. I'm not a physical person. Not usually anyways. When I was bawling my head off, I did need a hug though.

Quiz: What Is Your Life Path Number?

Your Life Path Number is 11

Your purpose in life is to inspire others Your amazing energy draws people to you, and you give them great insight in return. You hold a great amount of power over others, without even trying. You have the makings of an inventor, artist, religious leader, or prophet. In love, you are sensitive and passionate. You connect with your partner on a very deep level. You have great abilities, but you are often way too critical of yourself. You don't fit in - and instead of celebrating your differences, you dwell on them. You have high expectations of yourself. But sometimes you set them too high and don't achieve anything.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

Huhn. And I'm a Team Leader. Well I did tell this one rep, who was held back in Nesting (basically it's babysitting the reps, they get 5x the support to prep them for having to wait for help) and I'd had a 1 1/2 hr discussion about empathy, that I had to check if I'd coached him about having poor empathy before b/c his empathy statements are so good now. And I really did mean it b/c I did look in his journal. So I guess I've inspired some people. Just don't know how long his high will last since he's gotta pretty crappy self-esteem and gets frustrated easily. And he got a lousy monitor by Quality.

I hate my neighbours

just a really good line.

I was re-reading my blog post, and this huge thump came from my neighbours. So I say (yes I talk to myself. Well actually not to myself, I'm really talking to my lovelies in my room. Yeah, and I understand they have tags on them. And are filled w/ polyester or other stuffing material. What's your point?), "If you're going to have a fight, you should take it out the window." We're on the 17th floor. Tee hee. That was my good line. If you missed it. Bastards.... Sometimes I feel like Salty Taro.

I really hate whiny insecure people

Get home, it's been a real sh!t-@ss week where I broke down in front of my OM and started bawling b/c I was so stressed out, and what do I get to find in my email? A little note from my "friend" J who's been working 80 hrs weeks saying that
"Its finally
> starting to sink in
> that now [he's] just a causal friend/assocciate"
And why pray tell, would he think that? I'm working 50 hrs weeks and completely different schedules that it's nigh-impossible to coordinate, but I still call him to see if he's avail to go to do our usual comic shopping trip. But lo 'n' behold he's too busy, so I cannot live w/o my fix, instead go by myself. And spend $100s of dollars (yes, those are the major purchases on my credit card). And last week he actually had time to go, but since I already went to our usual hangout on Wednesday, I insisted that we go to another store so that I could find anything I might be missing. And I found a KOF wallscroll. Too bad it had a rip in it (typical from that store) but still cute. And it was his mom's b-day that day too, and I've been invited to family celebrations for oh... last 3-4 years? But did he invite me? Hell no. Instead of having turkey dinner, I had to settle for store-bought sushi. Which was okay (I don't think they make much nigiri anymore b/c it's more perishable), but his parents' cooking is lovely. Do I say to him, WTF? Nope, and then what do I find in my email a few days later? That f^cking email. Well f-u!

All day I have to babysit a bunch of people who either have zero self-esteem or are trying to pull a fast one on me. I was told by my OM to be more friendly w/ my staff and say hi to them more often. This to a person who routinely walks past her friends, and is constantly teased that I'm ignoring them. To me, the 3 minutes I have to spend on each of them (3*15) is time that I could spend on doing paperwork that their laziness, ineptitude and/or cheating causes. So guess what? I don't feel like coming home, and getting this bloody note from another whiner. Who has self-esteem issues. I do enough false platitudes and positive reinforcement at work, I don't need to do it at home. If he thinks I'm that shallow, well he can live in his little world of self-wallowing despair. I don't need that sh!t. Just really p!sses me off.

*pant pant*

I'm not sure if I'm finished my rant. But yeah I'm pissed. *breathe* Okay, I looked to see if there were further emails from him, and there were. I'd left him a VM inviting him to the wrestlemania shindig that I'm throwing at my apt. And he's accepted. Which means he can meet my work friends, one of whom is actively chasing me, has given me backrubs, taken me to movies, gotten me drunk but remained gentlemanly, who I shuffled to after my bawling at work, who gave me a small floral arrangment (live orchids...well as live as they can be when they're stuck in florist sponge) b/c I was so stressed. And the other who gave me a teddy bear for my b-day. (I'd asked for cute and fuzzy and I was referring to YuGiOh cards) ROFL. This is going to be so f^cking hilarious. Too bad D will be at work and can't watch the fireworks. D loves that kind of stuff. Maybe he should call sick.

Well I guess we can go back to analyzing that first email. Let's see, when we figured out that we would hang out on Sunday, that was b/c he'd called me on my cell, and at that time I was eating KFC w/ 3 other guys (D, TT, W) just before we were going karaoke. So of course he can hear the guys, and he goes "what are you doing?" Reflex response to him is to deny everything. B/c he has 0 self-esteem. But it was sorta "uh not much, just going out w/ some friends." And when we met up the next day, he didn't even ask about my night b/c he "guess [he] felt little akward." Which btw was pretty darn fun once I loosened up and my voice loosened up so I could get close to my normal range. Otherwise I sing sharp and high. (wait, did I write about this before? Oh sh!t, I did. *re-reading* Oooo, I guess I am pretty shallow. Wow, nothing like being high-n-mighty and eating crow in the same post) Where did eating crow come from anyways?!

You know what, I'm just going to delete that reply to his email. Bad idea. Yup. I'll just reply to his other email where he accepted the invitation and was much more pleasant.

Rationally Yes...Emotionally No

*sigh* so a weekend that I didn't hang out w/ JR. Yes it's true, after about 4 or so weeks running, we didn't hang out together. We were going to though. Another stressful week for me, full of staying at work late, dragged out only by wrestling and friends waiting for me. So JR was going to help me de-stress, like he has the past few weeks by taking me out to a movie or drinking. I swear this position is going to make me an alcoholic. Came home one night, and I told D, with all seriousness "I feel like having a beer." And I hate beer. Really hate it. Tastes like crap. But my mind was still filled w/ work-sh!t just spinning around, driving me crazy b/c it's going to be something I'll have to deal w/ next day which will inevitably be added onto by more cr@p that the team will come up w/.

Oh and hoh hoh hoh, there was a TL position that they posted. But only for 1. And a bunch of people put in applications. But I was talking w/ my TL, and he said that all the TLs in the Nesting teams (sorta the halfway house to being on the floor) want out b/c they hate it. You have to coddle the agents, monitor twice as much as regular TLs, constantly have team meetings, and it's insanely difficult for paperwork. So any TL position that opens up will inevitably be for the Nesting position. And seriously, if they say they're going to put me there, I'd rather be on the phones. Get paid about $13 for it anyways. Speaking of my TL, he got in trouble b/c he took an escalation from a RH that another TL was listening to so she could monitor the RH. But instead of taking off the headset when he came on, she continued to listen and didn't like how he handled it. And instead of talking to him about it, she sent an email to her OM and his OM. So he gets put on a disciplinary action that's 1 step away from employment review. Is it any wonder that so many TLs and people have quit?

Anyways, trying to get away from work here, good ol' JR. So on Sat, we were discussing what to do, and I AIMed him that I wanted to get the Karaoke Revolution game, and play it b/c singing makes me feel better. Then I got a call from TT who wanted to know if I wanted to karaoke. So I went karaoke last night, was pretty fun. I think I sing better w/ a partner. And I don't care who. When it's just me, I feel really self-conscious and my voice tightens up. I'm one of those ones who want to sound good, so I stick to the lyrics and don't improv stuff during the instrumental parts. I love singing "Time after Time" by Cyndi Lauper. I tried out "Waterfalls" by TLC but I only really remember the chorus. And then there was a like a rapping part (I guess it was supposed to be rap cause I don't remember it from the song) and it was pretty fast, so I just started saying whatever appeared on the screen as fast as I could read it. But I didn't really read, I just said it, and a couple times I was too fast. Guess it helps to be able to read romanization. D picked "Phantom of the Opera" to sing w/ me, and when I sang the first part, I was too high so I was getting really offkey, so I dropped it an octave in the second part. Yeah, I'm more a mezzo-soprano.

Anyways, when I was out w/ the guys, J called me, and the first thing he asked after how I was, was of course what I was doing. So it's like "not much...going out w/ my friends." Anyways we met today (or I suppose yesterday) and he didn't ask what I did. But it turned out to be his mum's b-day and he was going to have dinner w/ them. And in the past, I was always welcome, and he didn't say if I was invited or not, and I didn't ask, but I did't have turkey dinner. Well whatever really. We didn't do much except go shopping. Course he didn't say if he any plans either. We just talked about our crappy jobs, how many comics we were missing, that kinda stuff. And ya know, it's all fine for me. There's the small twinge of "oh I'm not getting free food anymore" but other than that, I don't miss him that much.

Later JR gave me a call to see if I wanted a drive home from work since he was in the neighbourhood (yeah it's a 10 min walk, but he does that anyways) but I woulda been off work by the time he called anyways. And if I was supposed to work today/yesterday, oh well. And he said he missed me even though we'll see each other tomorrow/today, and we'd seen each other on Friday. And while the sentiment is appreciated, it's really not returned. I suppose it could be b/c I've lost my mom when I was younger, so I'm not sensitive to missing people. But while I do like JR, and when I think about it, he's not a bad dude, nice voice, kinda cute, major flirt, wicked sense of humour, and I could see holding hands w/ him. But emotionally, it's like "eh" makes no difference to me. Maybe b/c I don't have that emotional void to fill or something. I dunno. I bawl like a baby whenever I see the characters losing their family (mothers are the worst for me) and I cried for hours w/ Eddie's death. But there are few people I could say that I miss when I don't see/talk to them. Sorta that outta sight, outta mind thing.

Quiz: The Klein Sexual Orientation Grid

Klein Sexual Orientation Grid

I scored an average of 1.86

0

1

2

3

4

5

6

Heterosexual

Bisexual

Homosexual

Meaning

This result can also be related to the Kinsey Scale:

0 = exclusively heterosexual
1 = predominantly heterosexual, incidentally homosexual
2 = predominantly heterosexual, but more than incidentally homosexual
3 = equally heterosexual and homosexual
4 = predominantly homosexual, but more than incidentally heterosexual
5 = predominantly homosexual, incidentally heterosexual
6 = exclusively homosexual

Summary

The idea of this excercise is to understand exactly how dynamic a person's sexual orientation can be, as well as how fluid it can be over a person's lifespan. While a person's number of actual homo/heterosexual encounters may be easy to categorize, their actual orientation may be completely different. Simple labels like "homosexual", "heterosexual", and "bisexual" need not be the only three options available to us.

Take the quiz

Um... uh... Oh boy. Mind you I had to wing some of the answers b/c...I'm not that experienced. But oy vey, I think I take too many quizzes. Really the whole sexuality thing is too complex to be covered in a 5 min quiz, cause I don't think I really fit into anything.

Followup to Quiz

Heh, I was looking thru all the results, and I realized I actually got pain, not fear. Wow, even now I subconsciously avoid writing about what could be bothering me b/c I want to avoid it. But I think Fear would be close to my results too. W/ a small dose of Purity. Interesting that most people got Pain. Maybe b/c they're taking quizzes to escape from something? (well aside from work) (or it could be the source of their pain)

Quiz: What lies behind your eyes?

Pain lies behind your eyes. You may seem normal on

the outside, but on the inside there is

something destroying you. You don't talk

about it because you hope it will go away.

But no matter how hard you try, you can't

hide from it. Maybe if you try talking to

someone, you may be relieved...


What lies behind your eyes?
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This was a really good quiz. Really made you think. It seems pretty accurate. When my TL told me that something must be bothering me b/c I wasn't my usual bubbly self, I went "I'm bubbly?!" And I guess I am, or at least I seem pretty nice. It seems the older I get, the less able I am to handle fear. Nearly scared myself peeless when I was reading The Ring manga. I'm not kidding. Was reading it at night, and then there were parts where I nearly dropped the book, and at the end, I was holding it as far as possible when reading the last couple of pages. Then afterwards I wanted it out my room, but I was too scared to open the door. So I put it facedown by my door, and didn't go back to bed. Stayed up until it was light, and hightailed it back to the bookshelf and shoved it in the back, and finally went to bed. Even typing this brings back memories of some of the panels, and freaks me out. Gotta read some yaoi to get it out. Well after I finish my damn cover letter/expression of interest.

Justifying my position

I'll say this off the bat, I really shouldn't be posting since I'm supposed to be writing a letter of interest for the Team Leader position, but I'd actually forgotten when I'd taken over my current team, so really I came to Blogger for purely research purposes. And then I realized that if I don't blog this down, I'll forget when I'd did things. Yup, it's true. Zero memory is me. So I'd taken over this current team on Feb 19, Mary's team the week before. And tomorrow I have to submit my resume and a coverletter/letter of interest. But there's no open positions. Well except for mine I guess since I'm the only SLR who hasn't had their team dissolve or isn't replacing someone on vacation.... Bastards! Yeah, it's phrased as a kind of poll for how many people are interested. I'm not sure if they're thinking of making more teams or what. But it's horribly difficult to write about yourself. W/o feeling like adding some swear words or massive bravado about how you're getting screwed over if you don't get the position. Considering my team is all a bunch a newbies, and they're at 2nd place for quality in the centre now. But anyways, I need to get this done. Maybe I'll think some crap up while I'm taking a shower. And no waterproof paper in sight either!

Quiz: Which TV boyfriend best suits you?

You should be with Dawson's Creek's Pacey Witter.

He's a class clown but his love for you makes

you feel alive. He's you're perfect match and

he would do anything for you.


Which TV boyfriend best suits you?
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Um who? I don't watch much TV, and from that period I was watching... Frasier, West Wing, cooking shows. Anyways, I guess he'd be like Bobby Drake aka Iceman, although I would rather have Hank McCoy aka the Beast. Which anime bf would I want? Hmmm, well since KOF is now an anime, that'd have to be Iori Yagami. Although I'd adore to have Sie Kensou or Shingo Yabuki. I can make green onion cakes! And I'll learn how to bake if need be!

After Sake, After Eight, After Something...

Oi, it's good thing I drank a lotta water. My friends JR and RJS took me out for dinner and to get me plastered, err relaxed. First we went to a Japanese restaurant, where I ended up eating both my appetizers b/c no one else wanted any of it(not that I minded. Mmmmm Saba Shioyaki and Tempura), and then having RJS's beef tataki b/c well, they don't like their meat raw. It was pretty wierd that the chicken yakitori was also done the same way as the tataki, just seared on the outside. RJS sent it back to be fully cooked. Never seen yakitori like that before. And we had an entire bottle of warm sake. And it wasn't one of the bottles you normally see in the anime, it was at least 1.5L 's worth. Hot sake is much better than lukewarm sake. But being a lightweight, it wasn't all to my liking. But JR and RJS were praising it like crazy, so I guess it was good. Anyways I had chirashi, and by the end of the dinner, I was pretty hammered. I could hear my heartbeat, and since JR had to drive, we had to finish the bottle.

But the night wasn't over! We were going to the Bank, but there was lineup, and since I was in my TL clothes, we couldn't go to Suburbs or First City. We ended up going to Sherlock Holmes. And JR ordered me something called... "Calibra" or something like that (had lime in it, and came in a mug w/ straw), but it was pretty gross, so we asked the waitress for ideas,and I got an After Eight. Which was good, and I finished that pretty fast. Then JR was going to get me another but I wanted something different but of course being a drinking virgin, I didn't have a clue what I wanted. So she got me something that turned my teeth blue but was in a mug w/ a straw. JR said it was probably an Astropop. It kinda tasted like pop. Then he ordered me a Baja Rosa which wasn't so good. The tequila killed the strawberry taste. Well by then I was starting to fall asleep, I was getting a pretty good headache too, and my cheeks were hurting from laughing and smiling so much. And at least my stomach hurt b/c I was laughing so much, instead of being all tensed from the stress.

Which is why they took me out. I've been so stressed out from managing 2 teams, reporting to 2 MOs, and trying to get the team into any semblence of improvement since both TLs basically left me w/o any help on their teams, just lots of paperwork. One of the TLs asked how I was doing, the standard question, and I went "I'm ready to be checked into the mental hospital." I was trying to be funny but I guess I looked so out of it, AJ goes "really?!", and I go "I'm joking," and then I start crying. I just have this problem when people fuss over me. I dunno, it makes me feel worse. Before when I was slaving away on MT's team and putting in 10-11 hrs days, one of my friends/peers said in a really kind but exasperated voice "Go home, you're killing yourself." And I didn't start bawling, but tears were leaking and I kinda mumbled "I know, but I gotta get this sh!t done." At least w/ CS's team I've only had to work 2 hrs overtime once, and the rest of the time, I've only been doing less than half an hour extra. I suppose it's technically my team b/c CS isn't coming back, and it's now starting week 2 I'll have the team. So far they haven't told me that they're getting someone to replace me or dissolve the team. Gawd, it's all a bunch of newbies, and there's so much that they don't know. And then there's one guy who's really gay... and really Catholic. So he's trying to be a celibate 51 year-old. And he smells, and has other medical issues. And is pretty stupid too, you have to repeat things 5 times before he gets it. And it's not you just repeating it, he has to repeat it to himself 5 times. And I'm still not sure if he gets it or if he's just trying to get me to shut up. I didn't know about the gay Catholic part until later, but after coaching him I had plenty of ammunition for mocking. And now that I know he's Catholic, let's just say it's really bad to have an atheist-agnostic for a TL.

What's an atheist-agnostic? Other than someone who can't seem to make up their mind but disclaims that they can't make up their mind? For me anyways, a lot of it is anti-established religion. Christianity, Islam, religions that are organized around central omnipotent, omniscient figure are a load of baloney to me. 1) they're probably just ripping from each other 2) they're worshipping the same character 3)the heads of the religion are making it up as they go along 4) its usefulness to gather a community and protect against outside forces are no longer valid in today's world 5)opiate for the masses. I really do believe in the latter. If you're a member, or were raised in that environment, you're probably a really good sheep. So there's the atheist part, I think most religions are a load of crock, especially when it bestows omnipotence & perfection to any figure. So the agnostic part is that I'm not so full of myself that I don't notice there are some wierd things going on, with an ability beyond our comprehension. But one society's science is another's magic. I'm not saying that we'll figure everything out (b/c then that'd be pretty boring), just that there's always something beyond us, but is falliable and potent. Humans are bed lice in the universe.

Why do they alway call living hell a "learning experience"?

So I've been put in charge of another team, and it's brings to mind "is this going to be a bad team or good team?" The other team I had was elements of both but more of the former, it's not good when the TL and OM feels sorry for saddling you with it. And I know I've told my peers about the probs w/ the team, it's just sorta, was I too vocal? B/c my new OM sorta gave me this look when he said he wanted to see me the next day for a meeting about my new team. It's like, errrr, wha??!! I'm sorry if I'm a little pissed off having to work 11 hr days b/c the team's so f-ed up and I have to rewrite all these disciplinary things, and review things that shoulda been taken care of ages ago. I spent a day working w/ the new team, and considering I was doing the same stuff, I only did 6 min of OT. Hmm, so either I'll have my blinders taken away and toss in more 11 hr days, or the team will be less of a chore to manage. I dunno. It's just driving me nuts this uncertainty.

And then there's a rumor that the prev team isn't going into training, so it's kinda WTF?! I'm not managing 2 teams. Screw off. Unless I get OM pay which should be around 50 000/year. It's just ridiculous. It's enough of a hassle w/ trying to work on clearing up stuff for the old team that I'd forgotten to check some things for the new team.

I'm hungry, I guess I'll have to get up now. Yes, and the schedule change too from 5:55am to 2:00pm start is screwing w/ my sleep too. Can't stay in bed past 10. End up reading tons of manga instead, and by the time I'm tired, it's time to get up.

Quiz: What Element Are you?

Earth: You are the calm and completely shy person.

You have a senseitivity towards nature in

general and deep love for freinds and family.

You grow very attached to those you love like

freinds, and family but you deeply avoid

those who are new. Part of the reason for

this is because you tend to despise change.

The sky and the forest tend to be where you

feel most comfortable, especailally if you

live in suburban and burban areas. In

general, your are a fiercely shy person but

when courage is absolutely neccesary, you

pounce and protect those you love. Those who

are attached to Earth tend to be very caring

and loving and have the best ears for

listening and a wide amount of knowledge for

advice.

Earth:
Listener
Great Advice
Shy
Smart
Loyal
Caring
Loving


What Element Are you?
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Hmm, I always seem to get earth. Ah well, that's ok. W/o earth we wouldn't have anywhere to live.

Quiz: What power do you use

You have the power of EARTH
Nature is

not a place to visit, it is home


What power do you use ((ANIME PICS!!!!))
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Ah, Earth. I built a few characters w/ earth-based powers. Unfortunately the GMs usually ruled that earth-control doesn't extend to all elements found in earth ie, carbon, silicon. Heh heh. BTW, that's my idea, so don't steal it! Very bad. B/c then I'll make you drown in earth.

The vacation didn't work

So I was given a team to take over for 3 days while the TL tried to get better(which was pretty stressful), and then the week after, I ended getting 32 hrs on Duty b/c someone else had a funeral to go to, and then I booked 3 days off for vacation, which combined w/ my regular days off gave me a total of 6 days off + the 4 shifts of duty (which is sorta like sleeping on the job) and I'm still not feeling better. I had been getting stomache pains which basically prevented me from eating more than a cup of food comfortably. And my sinuses were going crazy and my eyes were itchy. I figured out finally that w/ the crazy warm weather that we've been having there's probably been a lotta dust and pollen going around which would expl the hayfever. Which doesn't make it any better, but at least I know. But I can't use the anti-histamines b/c the apt is really dry, although I guess I could plug in the vaporizer but I'd also need to get vinegar to dissolve the sediment that builds up on the ... uh...electrodes? Well basically it's 2 metal bars that when a current runs btwn them causes the water to boil and hence steam to be produced. Anyways, still stomach pains and I'm running out of pills. When it happened before, they disappeared after I'd moved. Of course that won't help now.

Apt living itself is ok. There is of course my neighbor who must have some auto-tap turner b/c the damn water will run for about 30 sec, turn off for 2 min, and then on again all thru the night. And then the other neighbor w/ the thumpa-thumpa music. However my roommate D causes the most trouble. He caused a noise complaint. I'd have to partially agree w/ his assessment of himself, he's probably got some kind of autism. Or ADD. And procrastination like crazy. Seems he forgot that it was after midnight and he was blasting his computer speakers. It's like dude, you looked at when Smackdown ended(midnight) and then saw part of Daily Show and Colbert Report, how can you not know it was after 12?! And why didnt' I tell him to turn the damn thing down? B/c I'm not his mom. I'm not around to pick up after him, so I don't clean the dishes he leaves in the sink for days. I just tell him to put it in the dishwasher if it still sits there. I'm not going to cook for him (after he made the comment that it's like still being married (H's in Korea) b/c it's nice to come home to a warm meal) but he's welcome to eat the leftovers (b/c I always cook lots so I don't have to cook the next day) but he never does and it's not my problem. I don't tell him to eat, b/c it's his responsibility. Actually I suppose I am pretty poed at him, b/c it's that Chinese/Jewish/fill-in-archetype-here motherly/grandmotherly type who makes sure that everyone is fed to their gills, and I know I'll bug T to eat better if all I see is him eating crackers for lunch. And then he never throws out the trash until I basically tell him too. Even when I left out the recyclables in the middle of the kitchen floor (I was sorting it out in the middle of playing Soul Calibur 3:Chronicles of the Sword), he just walked around it until I asked him if he could finish doing it b/c I was in the middle of a match. And yes that was a test. I've done the lion's share of cleaning the apt, washing dishes. I know now why he insisted I have the mailbox key.

Course he's probably pissed at me for hogging the tv all the time. I have to go to work earlier than him, so when I get home, it's on the ps2, and I usually play for a couple hours, and then it's Daily Show/Colbert report. Of course he could play in the morning, if he got up after I left (we're talking 3 hrs btwn when I'm at work and he's at work). And play when I go to bed as long as he kept the volume down (below 70 decibels) but he likes to blast the stereo system at about 100+ decibels. And unlike him, I don't like to talk during my shows(except for wrestling which you can just watch and don't have to listen to the commentators) and I really hate it when it's during my anime. Especially when I have the Japanese track on. So I'm sure we irritate each other fairly enough. Still have to go about making that chore list.

And now I get to take over another team for 3 weeks while the TL goes on vacation. Which will probably mean that I'll want another few days off afterwards b/c the team is like pretty cruddy. So many of them have disciplinary actions against them, and a couple of them outright hate each other, it's crazy. *sigh* I don't wanna spend another 10+ shifts there. Mind you, that was only the 1st day, 2nd day was about 9, and then 3rd day I only did 8 b/c I had to go to dinner at my brother's house. But then the next day when I was on Duty, I spent about 2 hrs just cleaning up stuff and writing email to the TL/OM about what I did. I'm thinking I might not be kidding, I will have to take out the whips and chains b/c that team's quality is the pits. Myself, I'm pretty good at quality, gotten my fair share of 100% monitors. My opening statement now is so long that I run out of breath. No joke. It's actually this: "Thank you for holding. You've reached ____ ____ Customer Service. My name is ___ ___, and I'd be happy to assist you today, but first can I start by verifying that the wireless number you're calling in reference to is __ __ ____?" So will I be hammering quality? You better believe it. And trust me, I have a set way that I want things, and lots of examples on why it works. So monitor-wise I'm not worried too much, although there are a few times when I'm not to sure if my standards are too high or how to score something. It's the paperwork that's probably going to be crushing, and handling all the team's issues.

Anyways, went to put in my contacts. Yes, I have contacts now. They're 30-day ones. I was trying to sterilize my Complete lens case by putting it in boiling water. I think if it weren't for the fact that it was against the side of the pot it woulda been okay, but it ended up bending... and well, now I have a new one. I was looking at the generic ones, but how do you sterilize those ones except by putting them in rubbing alcohol and rinsing like mad afterwards? They're were such cheap plastic looking things. I suppose you could throw them out every time you switch to a new pair. It was only $1.99 for a pair. So I got a Renu one instead, but that's not as good as the Complete one b/c it's all white, so you have to really squint to see the L. I saw some Hello Kitty ones, but I don't know if I wanna spend lots on it, especially when the optomertrist said I should chuck them after about 6 mons even if I take really good care of them. *sigh* Should just get glass cases, then I can just chuck them in boiling water for as long as I want. Or even auto-clave them if I had an auto-clave. ... was just googling lens cases. Huhn. There sure are some ugly ones out there.

Anyways, also lost my phone. Somewhere between work and apt. So annoyiing b/c that old NOK had a ringtone composer. Not like the stupid crap that they have nowadays where you put together preset blocks of music together, but a 3 octave scale, whole notes to 1/16 beats, bpm. Sure it was monophonic, but it gave me more freedom. And the calculator was very good. Now I'm looking at the SE Z520a or the NOK 6020. Read the manuals, and I'm leaning towards the SE b/c it has more features (though I doubt I'll be using the IR or Bluetooth) but I'll have to play w/ it to make sure.

The vacation didn't work

So I was given a team to take over for 3 days while the TL tried to get better(which was pretty stressful), and then the week after, I ended getting 32 hrs on Duty b/c someone else had a funeral to go to, and then I booked 3 days off for vacation, which combined w/ my regular days off gave me a total of 6 days off + the 4 shifts of duty (which is sorta like sleeping on the job) and I'm still not feeling better. I had been getting stomache pains which basically prevented me from eating more than a cup of food comfortably. And my sinuses were going crazy and my eyes were itchy. I figured out finally that w/ the crazy warm weather that we've been having there's probably been a lotta dust and pollen going around which would expl the hayfever. Which doesn't make it any better, but at least I know. But I can't use the anti-histamines b/c the apt is really dry, although I guess I could plug in the vaporizer but I'd also need to get vinegar to dissolve the sediment that builds up on the ... uh...electrodes? Well basically it's 2 metal bars that when a current runs btwn them causes the water to boil. Anyways, still stomach pains and I'm running out of pills. When it happened before, they disappeared after I'd moved. Of course that won't help now.

Apt living itself is ok. However my roommate D caused a noise complaint. I'd have to partially agree w/ his assessment of himself, he's probably got some kind of autism. Or ADD. And procrastination like crazy. Seems he forgot that it was after midnight and he was blasting his computer speakers. It's like dude, you looked at when Smackdown ended(12) and then saw part of Daily Show and Colbert Report, how can you not know it was after 12?! And why didnt' I tell him to turn the damn thing down? B/c I'm not his mom. I'm not around to pick up after him, so I don't clean the dishes he leaves in the sink for days. I'm not going to cook for him (after he made the comment that it's like still being married (H's in Korea) b/c it's nice to come home to a warm meal) but he's welcome to eat the leftovers (b/c I always cook lots so I don't have to cook the next day) but he never does and it's not my problem. I don't tell him to eat, b/c it's his responsibility. Actually I suppose I am pretty poed at him, b/c it's that Chinese/Jewish/fill-in-archetype-here motherly/grandmotherly type who makes sure that everyone is fed to their gills, and I know I'll bug T to eat better if all I see is him eating crackers for lunch.

And now I get to take over another team for 3 weeks while the TL goes on vacation. Which will probably mean that I'll want another few days off afterwards b/c the team is like pretty cruddy. So many of them have disciplinary actions against them, and a couple of them hate each other, it's crazy.

Semi-Review: Weib Kreuz Gluhen

Yes, I finally saw Gluhen. I'd gotten the boxset on Boxing Day (how apropos) and finally set aside the time to watch all 3 discs (a day each, 325+ min is a bit long to sit/lay around). Visually, much better than the first series. Everything looked very clean, no problems w/ the art, characters stayed true to their design. Plotwise, it was much better, tighter scripting and events that tied together and made sense. So altogether a major step up from the first one. The story itself isn't really anything we hadn't seen before: clones, crazy school churning out soldier trying to take over the world. I've never been a Yohji fan, and it was a "agh! My eyes!" when he was in his swimsuit floating in the pool. (Omi, Aya, Ken in skivvies is perfectly ok w/ me). And when Yohji did a major betrayal (to spoil or not to spoil? It is over 3 yrs old now.... eh whateverl), I was cheering for Aya to kick his scrawny butt. Too bad about Kyo, he did have a lotta potential. And they really like picking on the young guys don't they? First Omi and then Sena.

Anyways, on to the more important thing. The lovely lovely seiyuus. Can you say squeal-fest?! Or it would have been except that would've drowned out their sex-shi voices, so it was really more a hold-breath fest. Didn't pass out b/c no one had long monologues or soliloquies. I wonder if it was Yuuki-san's voice that they digitized for Persia? They changed it so much, you can't even tell, so unless it's just the pacing for how he speaks...but when it was him, he was so cute. Such a difference between his Persia/Mamoru/Omi voices. Anyways, fine work as always from the rest of Weib, kinda surprised how late they brought in Ken and Yohji. However the major cause for rewind-hold breath-rewind was Seki Toshihiko as Knight. *sigh* When he did his sex-shi sex-shi voice playing chess with Queen... *drool* However some notables seiyuus and their other roles: Berger is Maxima from KOF, Sena is Ranma/Inu Yasha, Tsuji is Major Kusanagi from GITS, Bishop is Clavis from Angelique, Rook has a couple roles from Saiyuki Reload, Pawn is Neji from Naruto, and of course Schwarz members are all popular seiyuus w/ major notable roles. Anyways, I dunno if it was a matter of friends working on the show or just really sweet contracts, but Weib has major seiyuu power behind them, and it's not just the Weib members.

Oh and disc-wise, aside from the major annoyance of the box having a corner dented in, and when I took off the damn security tape (is taping on all 3 sides really necessary?!) b/c the cover wasn't placed properly, the tape was stuck to it, and I'd already majorly creased the paper trying to pull it down. So I had to rip the stupid tape off, and hence some of the cover on the edge. I really really hate that. But that's not MediaBlasters/AnimeWorks fault. What they could work on is: presenting the Japanese credits, having romanji for the opening/closing. C'mon, it's not that hard! Their subtitles are adequate, not great but does get the meaning across. The extras w/ the Weib Kreuz Radio was sugoi as usual. Poor Yuuki-san. He's just so formal and polite, and Koyasu-san and Seki-san seem to love to tease him. They seem to leave Shinichiro-san sorta alone, but then again, he's just quiet but can gutter-talk as well as those 2. Shinichiro-san and Seki-san are really good artists, but poor Yuuki-san! I like his tora though. It wasn't a great drawing, but it was cute. So I guess for extras, sheerly on the silliness and fun of them together, they weren't bad. I'm not sure if trailers should count as part of extras, but at least they play the Japanese themes, and there's no English narrator. I dunno, it just bugs me. Seems wrong. And yeah, if the English track were on the other side of the disc, I'd probably color on the English side so I don't accidentally put it in the wrong way. Although the outtakes were quite amusing. Too many uses of "bitch" though. It was funny the first 3 times.

Lovely thing to distract and support: King of Fighters:Another Day Go Iori!

Happy B-day to Me!

So today was all in all a pretty good day. Didn't start off too great.

I'd forgotten to put a wrap on my wrist last night, but my wrist didn't hurt too much. It was my shoulder, specifically my scapula-area that hurt like crazy. I'm not sure if it's just b/c I tend to sleep on my side and combined w/ the fall yesterday that it hurts, or if it's just the fall that's killed it Still have full range of motion so there's nothing broken or torn, but it hurt. Then when I went to take a morning pee, I got a little surprise. I mumbled monotonely "Happy Birthday to me!"(well this was after only 4 hrs of sleep) and proceeded to get the necessities to prevent messes.

Went a little better, Pokemon Chronicles was a Pichu brothers' episode which is soooo cute. Then went to Warp, and Lin is basically running the entire store, so it's nice even though she seems more tired than ever. Apparently when J went to get my b-day prez (Saiyuki's Sanzo messanger bag) he went to ask Lin if she could get the store to sing me Happy Birthday, 2 of them agreed, but Helen wasn't in, so the other guy did it. Poor fellow, but nice of him. And Lin gave me 10% off too! Then my presents I got the aforementioned Sanzo bag and Genji game. I showed both to Maxine and said "aren't they cute?" And she was drooling Uh huh! Also will be getting the Resident Evil 4 game. Gawd, I'm gonna be pissing myself, especially once D sets up the surround sound. Chris got me the WWE's RPG Know Your Role! handbook. That'll be fun to learn and play. Seems based of the D20 system. J's parent's gave me$40 b/c they couldn't think of anything but that's ok.

Afterwards we went to see Narnia. It was quite good, a bit slow at the start, fair bit of char development for Peter, not much for Susan, and Edmond was still left a bit shallow. Battle was bit short and not quite as epic as LOTR. Maxine liked Mr. Thomas, I liked the Beaver. J was scared of the white witch but liked her. After we went to dinner, I had beef tendon noodle soup. It's hard to get tendon right at home b/c my dad has tried, b/c it involves really long cooking. But it was nice and soft at the restaurant.

So I'm trying to clean up my desk a bit, and was getting somewhere when D came and turned on Mythbusters. So I'm watching that now as I'm doing my blog.

Day of Gains and Falls

So today was my day off, and was it busy!! I made an appointment to see my optometrist to check if my contacts were ok. That and a bit of grocery shopping was all I had planned. Yesterday my dad calls me and asks if I want to go to dim sum at 12. Since it wasn't going to be in chinatown, I had to take the bus. So I stick my contacts in(b/c I ned to have them on for 4 hrs before I see the doctor) and as I get to bus stop, I think I see my bus leaving. So as I stand in the shelter, I check my phone for the time to see if it was my bus, and there's 2 msg on my VM. And it's my brother asking if I needed a ride. Well, by now I'm pretty sure that was my bus, so I call him up, and head back to my apt to wait. Dim sum was ok, my bro's gf was there too, but my nieces weren't there b/c they were sick so my other bro had to take care of them. Afterwards we went back to the house to pick up laundry and mail. And bumps and bruises.

This is not how I planned to go down the stairs. This may be a rush-rush world, but in this case I would have liked to have gone down the stairs a little slower. I was not supposed to feel air. I was not supposed to feel pain. My butt was not supposed to connect to the stairs except from the vibrations reverbrating thru my skeleton as my feet struck the stairs. All the stairs. In this case my feet only hit 33% of the stairs. My butt and hip took much more vibration than it was used to. But at least it was used to it. My wrist on the other hand is not used to taking the full weigh of my body plus absorbing most of the kinetic energy of my rapid descent. It is still movable therefore likely indicating that there are the normal count of carpal bones and they are still in their proper places. My wrist is still within the normal bell curve of size variation in comparison with my other wrist. However it would seem the ligaments have been strained, After a day of carrying bags of groceries, it is now in one of my wraps, and will likely be there for the next 24 hrs. I wonder if I could skip work? It is w/ my right wrist and I'm right-handed, and all of our programs require a mouse. Okay, I guess that's kinda bad. Especially after we got a $1.15 raise. So now the base pay is $11.50, there's no salary cap, and it's supposed to be no-strings attached raise. Well, we'll believe it when it's on our paystub.

While I was there I got $50 red pocket money from my dad. Chinese New Year may be next week, but he wasn't sure if he was going to see me then. Then he first asks when my niece Melissa's b-day is, and then goes," isn't yours around the same time?" Yeah, like tomorrow. So he gave me $100 for my b-day which is pretty sweet. I usually don't get that much. I'm also now officially a member of the Gamer Advisory Panel for Playstation. Got a plastic card to put in my wallet and a tag to hang on my keychain. I'm so cool! ^_^

Anyways, my eyes are all good, apparently I have 20/20 vision w/ them, which is wierd b/c I had probs reading the tv screen when I'm playing. Anyways, I'm not sure if 6 pairs for $80 is a good deal or not. Or if it would be covered by my company benefits or if it's been less than 2 yrs since the last time they covered it. I'll also have to call them about the life insurance, b/c I can keep the policy after I leave the company, and I just want to know the rate I would pay. B/c I"m already getting life insurance thru another company, but they charge over... $30 for ... something. Cripes! WTF?! *looking* seems to be life, wage supplement in case of unemployment, hospital stuff. Geez, well if I stayed w/ the company for the rest of my life, I wouldn't need it. But gawd I don't want that.

Anyways, I'll deal w/ that stuff another time (hopefully sooner than later), anyways, I got meself another Beast figure. It's actually a mini-bobblehead of the feline version. Saw one of them capsule machines, and J had a toonie (yeah it's expensive for a random figure) and he picks up the capsule and clasps it in his hands, looks and then goes "Who do you love?" and I go "Beasty!" and he goes "Happy Birthday!" and I go "Yeah, now I don't need any more b-day presents!" and he's like "Man, if I only gotten it earlier and then I'd only have to spend $2 on you." so I go "but if you didn't get Beast it'd be Here's the entire lineup except for Beast", to which he agreed "it'd be so sad if I had to go to till and exchange a $20 for toonies."

Ah, Beast how I adore you so!
All cuddly and furry,
With a brain that's always in such a hurry
If only others respect for you would grow
Your favours they would curry
Your social life a flurry
The weight of your books would make the shelves bow
With so much fanmail it might even bury
But what really makes you purr-y
Is bright students to show
What's better than hentai, yaoi and yuri
Is a beaker full of chemical slurry!

Ahem..., okay, that was a pretty bad poem. But it had form and meter, and was a pain to rhyme.

Anyhoo after Toys R Us(and I know what I'll be getting as present b/c I saw the game was still @ the same low price and J said, "don't get it!") that we looked at some leather jackets. Found this nice one w/ lots of pockets but b/c I have wide shoulders, I need to get L, but then I'm a shapeless blob underneath. That could be fixed if it had some belt or an inner cord to tighten up the middle. *sigh* and it was only $250. Bought lots of grocery. I'm really trying to eat more veggies, but after a couple weeks of frozen veggies, I'm just tired of it and want fresh stuff. Go figure. I didn't care when I was living w/ my dad, but now it's like, I need veggies! Don't have scurvy yet. Got a few things for Chinese New Year. Not decorations, although I could probably use the ba gua mirror. Had this horrible nightmare where I was at a Xmas party for SLRs with the TLs who made up our duties, and Pile was completely blitzed. Like absolutely stumbling around and doing really inappropriate things. So our temp TL had come with a choker and Pile took it off her to try it on, and then he comes to me to point out how interesting it was and how I should try it on. And I'm trying to refuse when he spins me around and then glomps onto me. And I'm looking at my fellow SLRs w/ the look of sheer terror on my face but I'm too freaked to scream. So when I told this story to J, he sorta gets this look of jealousy and discomfort on his face. Whereas when I told D, he was just laughing cause it was so messed up. I think J keeps trying to psychoanalyze my dreams, cause that's what usually happens whenever I tell him one, didn't try to do it w/ this one though.